Mum's temper and everything is getting worse...getting more frustrated too....cried to sleep again yest...feel more and more afraid n painful till its unbearable...i wish there;s something more lasting that can comfort me..for now..theres still my comfort book (twilight series by stephanie meyer)..thats y i dun bear to read so fast..coz im afraaid that if i do so..the "afraid" mode will turn back on again..yest..wk n i were talking about the imaturities i had last time..when he talked to be about the unecessity of travelling and stuff..at that point of time..i had already understood everything..just tt i was so darm stubborn so i denied..like in the book eclipse...i so much wished that he would be more understanding..jus like Edward Cullen..if hes like tt..i guess i wud feel so much more secure to know tt he will always be there for me and be really understanding...if things could jus end with a switch..i dun think i wud need to think twice about pressing it down