Yest was mum's bdae...went to Kushinbo at suntec to meet them after work...e food there...yuuuuuummmm!!!!!!!!super full ah!!!ate and ate and ate to make the buffet money worth!HHAHAHA....then joey kept eating the chawamushi...said it was for protein...=.=???????building up of her CHEST...lol....looking forward to weekends!!!!

I came up with a new JODY's philosophy today!!!that is..if everyone can live for many many thousand years like vampires do,peoeple will become more and more good natured.And if people have the ability to predict what will happen and live for a thousand years,getting rich will be much easily attainable!!!!HAHA....den can buy this can buy that!!whoa...if that happens i will shop shop shop till i drop!
These few days had been thinking about the dinner to meet up before joel goes into the army...decided not to go again...although i so much wanted to meet up with them...but cause he didnt ask me to go..i predicted he din wan me to be there too...it was until xiao qing asked him why din he ask me to go that was why he came down to my house to apologise as he din tel his friends that we had been back together..kinda known that this would happen already..because his friends had seen how hurt he had become,they din actually wan us to get back..so bring "guilty",he came over to ask whether i was unhappy and stuff..but what can i say???I was hurt too...but i had to tel him its ok as another reason why he couldnt disclose the current status is due to his good fren kai...hu supely objected to his decision to getting back..since she had been betrayed by his ex and would feel more betrayed and hurt if wk were to tell her the current status...
If he didnt know that i knew about that meet up,if XQ didnt ask him anything,would he have come still???i really doubt so...
how much do i mean to him??compared to kai or his other frens..?????????????? sometimes i really wonder....

when people get hurt,selfishness is sometimes used as a facade...

will the feeling of being obligated to giving in end up as a habit?. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

miss u jia...miss u listening ear =(

7th Mar 09

Went to work as usual..today's shift ended at 1pm...went home to rest for a while and then it started to rain...sooooo heavy with an overload of thunders..is the sky in a bad mood or smth?lol...aniwae...my pillar called me to talk about a change in plan since it was rainin to heavily...we cant go ECP animore...ended up gg for a dinner and movie "Marley and me" at the recently built shopping-recreation mall at pasi ris,near all the chalets...

The show was so very touching...and towards the end i cried...the dog was gave the couple and family so many memories to remember...even when it has passed on...its like an unconditional loving relationship which makes you feel special...simply touching!!!its just wad i needed as it reminded me to learn to let go..as things will be so much better...

My very own personal pillar has made me look at things from different perspective and has reminded me of the things that i have long forgotten...like being more giving to the others around me..for that,i m really grateful..so new goal for now : be less stubborn and learn to let go..including all the hurt=)....by doing so will i then be able to make the others around me happy too!!When some things happen,the realization makes you more aware too...and it will change a person's mindset..so,i have to realy learn to let go n be more forgiving..

Mum's temper and everything is getting worse...getting more frustrated too....cried to sleep again yest...feel more and more afraid n painful till its unbearable...i wish there;s something more lasting that can comfort me..for now..theres still my comfort book (twilight series by stephanie meyer)..thats y i dun bear to read so fast..coz im afraaid that if i do so..the "afraid" mode will turn back on again..yest..wk n i were talking about the imaturities i had last time..when he talked to be about the unecessity of travelling and stuff..at that point of time..i had already understood everything..just tt i was so darm stubborn so i denied..like in the book eclipse...i so much wished that he would be more understanding..jus like Edward Cullen..if hes like tt..i guess i wud feel so much more secure to know tt he will always be there for me and be really understanding...if things could jus end with a switch..i dun think i wud need to think twice about pressing it down

I learnt a new term today..from dear!!..lol..its zzz,which stands for sian..after soo darn long den i realise...HAHa.today went to east coast park with liqi and her bf..brought jowy along and planned to cycle..but it kept raining..stop-rain-stop rain...in the end when it was around 6+ in the evening den it finally stopped raining...thought that it wud stop raining for good..but jus after we rented our bikes and started cycling for a while..it started raining.AGAIN.=(
we went cycling in paragraphs..stopping to seek shelter when the rain becomes heavier..in the end we got so drenched that we have given up to keep ourselves dry..
Cycling in the rain was fun!!Cold but it feels so carefree..with the wind blowing against your face..
Days are getting harder to live past..the moment i got home..mom started to talk about financial probs..family living expenses and everything just started sinking me down...zzz..

Today went back to RP for a mini party kinda thingy conductued by Dr michelle siow as part of a gathering?lol...

First thing in the morning ee jia came to my house to look at some clothes to wear for that tiny weeeny function...after that we took train together from Kembangan to Woodlands.On the train ride..took quite a number of pictures with her new samsung pink touchscreen phone...DAMN COOL!!!so wanna get a pinkish touch screen phone too=(

The camera function on her phone had loads of funtions to edit the photos..superly nice lar!!haha.

Left school at around 3pm and went to Causeway point POPULAR to get some stationery...jia's flying off this sunday..gonna miss her so so much..after that went to meet pig aka wei keong at my school's station..usual place..(straight in from the main train gates..den take the escalator up on your right and walk straight to the end).As I sat down on the marble seat beside him..he took out a bouquet of flowers and gave it to me!!Shock just kept flowing in...coz i didnt expect that the least bit...furthermore there was no special occasion!!=)

Those flowers must have cost you a BOMB=(..Thanks a truckload for that!!really appreciated it alot...though i didnt say much...

We boarded the train and alighted at AMK to catch the movie ''Bride Wars"..was quite a reasonably good movie..a lil' touching,a lil' comedy.For that remaining part of the day..i just kept smiling and smiling to myself..lol...seems retard but i jus cant control..dont know why..but i jus felt appreciated,pampered and LOVED!!that was the most important!It had been a looong long time since I had smiled like tt..really smiled coz i feel really joyed.I just can use any verbal explanation or watsoeva to explain how well you have made me feel..just like on cloud 9..smiling from deep within the heart...because of you..thanks a million!

Took bus 24 from AMK bus inter home...had asked keong if he wanted to go eat steamboat with me at my place and he agreed...it was mum's offday this week and shes cooking..my energy level at that point of time was so damn low i just kept quite quiet..lol..he noticed and asked me why..(glad that u noticed=).After dinner watched 'tuan yuan fan' and then sent him out to the ''3rd staircase of our block''

Thanks for everything..for you make me feel appreciated and loved..=D